bad words. reflection.

Lately, I haven't cursed. I haven't cursed in a while actually. It used to be a real problem. And then as I kept at keeping it out of my thoughts and from coming out of my mouth, it slowly became a problem of the past. At times I would even gasp in thought as someone said a curse word. But for some reason all of a sudden, i get these thoughts like, "I can totally say the f (a, s, b, etc) word right now. Ok I'm going to riiiiiiiight now." And I end up never saying it because I get this heavy weight kind of feeling on my chest. Or if I'm yelling at my sisters I feel like just shouting curse word after curse word but I don't and then I just stop yelling at them because I don't even want to think of cursing, especially in moments like that. Oh but I've had very minor slips but nothing serious except for today. I said the S word. I kept dancing in Julio's room to bug him and he kept telling me to stop and finally he got up from his bed to "hurt me" and he grabbed my wrist and I'm laughing at walking backwards and I'm afraid of stepping on something then.... I said it. Ugh. I'm not gonna let myself get back in the habit. Obviously I'm doing something wrong right now. I've let my guard down on something and Satan is really trying to get though..